LOVEE

i'm so so so busy during the holidays ! few days ago , berry found a kitty it's so cute siol ! i bring home (: even tho mummy dun allow i still keep for now , i said i will give it away asap . but i really really love it ): there's one problem lehs baby doesn't poo poo . i bring baby to the vet yesterday and the doctor say baby has constipation lols , she say the chances of baby living is actually very low cos it needs it's mummy . sad sad but i'll still try my best . lazy post le larhhs byess !

Happy birthday mummy !<3 ((: {25/10}

& Happy belated birthday Jolene ! ((: {23/10}

i got nothing to post about lorhhs seriously or am i too lazy ? (: ohya btw gone start working tomorow already . good luck to me !!

AAMIL HAQEEM ,

knowing someone so long doesn't mean anything , that's what i know from you . we've been friends for 7,8 years and what now ? i dun know why lorhhs we just quarrel for stupid things , if i'm the one who started it i'm sorry . But seriously this time round what i do wrong ? i said sorry and still you give me that attitude . i treat you as my best friend , and what do you treat me as ? rubbish , toy , shit , whatever ? we're just drifting further and further apart . you know because of this i'll not appear in places you are at , because i dun wanna spoil your mood .

wanted to print notes to help you with your exams . but i know you won't be happy see me , so yupps didn't . i'll automatic disappear infront of you .  

everything is my fault larhhs my fault you happy ? you're the best larhhs everything you do is always right .

POA paper today was so happy cos it's 100% way more easier then i tot , (: balanced my balance sheet {first try} i'm gona pass cannot let my paper 1 hai me . ROARS , pei yuki eat lunch and i went home straight after school , sian study chem zzz ~ cook rice cake ((: <3 watch mtv and pandamonium !

i'm having a headache now , sister just fight with her boyf -.- bang door here and there , and there she goes . everytime like this now dun know go where already -.- ,

can i kick you punch you or whatever you ? {love you ?} LOL i'm crazy . what you mean why i didn't need to reply , just give me reply shuai shuai cannot uhs ! roars sad + angry ! everytime i free will think of you so i must keep myself occupied excluding posting LOLS , come come i tell you something you're very cute (:

fall in love with this song even tho i dun understand lOl

dental appointment yesterday , dentist say dec or jan can take out braces already (: went point to find sokyee and shivani study , halfway saw yuki and asyikhin they also study lols . went off at 5 with yuki to irwell's house , his mama very fierce , VERY . hahahahhas , his sister ,gladys so cute (: play-ed drama with her . went off at 7 to chak wai's house , as per normal edwin bully me hahahas , @ chak wai's house memories keep flashing in my mind . . . . reach home @ 11 plus , watch tv then before sleep put the rubber thingy on brace . woke up @ 4am plus take out the rubber thingy , cannot take it . it's super painful , must put every night sia i think i'm gona die sia seriously . PAIN ): gona go bath now and study already can't fail my geo as my ss 100% confirm fail already hahahs. byeeeeeeeeeeee .

i'm trying real hard to forget everything cos it's exam , but i cann't . i feel like killing myself and kill you too you know ! i've regreted way way wayyyy too much , but since you wan us to be like this then i shall listen . heart beats faster min by min as i'm typing this out , what if i regret again ? what will happen , i seriously hate myself when it comes to this , my answer will always be i dun know , i dun even know if i really dun know or is it just that i dun wann face it , sucks ,

i'm sorry , really sorry . i know i've hurt you alot  . i know it's too late but just wanna tell you , you make me smile (: believe it or not , up to you . seeing you sad won't make me happy , but i'm the one making you sad isn't it ? see get it !? i dun even know wthell i'm thinking . did i really change ? {everyone seems so far away from me} am i crazy LOL .

&& the song/lyrics or whatever is it , you've spend alot of time writing it so nicely is it , you know . i'm touched ; i cried . i've got a question for you but i'm too afraid to ask . i super hate it now , why can't we talk why must this happen everytime , i think it's the last time the very last time and we won't talk forever ? seeing you talk to others happily i feel . . . thinking why can't i talk to you like this ? sucks , i sucks .

4 papers down , dun know how many left lOls ,

during chinese exam i was doing doing then suddenly something shiny caught my eye , i turn i saw a ring , you were wearing it . i want ask you something eh , the ring is couple ring or what ? just curious , you knowwwww . . . .

i'm gona concentrate on my physic and chem or maybe physic only lols , that's my only hopeeeeeeee . others i think no hope already really zzz , aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh ,

@ asyikhin's house now . yupps her open house , make me think of sun , the day i went to your house . even though i know we won't talk , but still i went .LALALALALALAS , i got buy candles !! later going downstairs to playyyyyyyyy woot , people still kids larhhs sorry . no study for today ! actually i haven even started of studying :xx

yesterday went to city hall , fellowship with cell group members , eat and while waiting for others to finish , me wanna go pet shop so asked yuki yanwen && mark to accompany me go , AWWWWWWW i love puddings ! no matter what breed of pudding it is ! ((: after the whole thing sat at the stairs which is beside the river or sea or whatever it's called . mark was irriating kelvan cos we singing and mark sudden'y tell me "i'm in love " you know who ? HAHAs that white hamster !! lOl didn't wan to go home so early but yuki && yanwen wanted to go so , went home with them , yuki wanna cab home -.- in the cab i was soo quiet cos was enjoying the view while the other two was crazy talking nonsenses . hahaas , went home i eat half of a moon cake ,  bath and fall asleep

that day {i forgotten which day} khairil sms me saying he saw you @ ave8 there playing soccer , that reminds me of last time , i was like crazy lorhhs , everytime i know where you are right i would walk pass that place , and everytime i go tuition i would go out abit earlier or later just because i know i will see you @ the bus stop or even in the bus . i dun know larhhs i just have the feeling that you would appear @ that time @ that place LOL , even though sometimes won't see you larhhs . aiya zzz -.-

我不想读书！哈没有选择too bad, i'm too lazy to post in chinese alreadygona be a quick post hahahs . i post  just to tell someone something .

To : You && Aamil

it's the end of the year dun play play okayyys . you not worried i worried for you lehs . wthell -.- , you'll seems so free , study hard please really . i'm seriousssss ~ dun know if you all got study anot but yupps , if got then good larhhs but dun have faster start . even though i also haven study LOL .i dun wanna see anyone not pass the promote thingy including myselfffffffff,

&& watch this video it's real sad , see how fortunate{dunknowhowspell} we are .

i wanna change myself , i hate my that crazy attitude , i just wanna be a quiet girl . and not what i am now , a crazy mad women who goes round laughing like crazy for no reason .

Today was horrible horrible horrible ! ): , had talk about stress lOL i'm having stress uhs , ya ya ~ too much stress already larhhs ! wonder if i should take back my words for the last post , you know why ? cos of your sms . not to say you but alot alot of your words shoot me . it's like someone stab a knife in my heart . sometimes , just say once can already you no need to repeat it over and over again . i've got nothing more to say larhhs it just really really shot until me , sometimes i miss you sometimes i feel like dissapearing in this world so i dun have to face you anymore . i know larhhs i know larhhs i will regret for my whole life but yeah I KNOW -.- zzz , enough enough .

今天在班上时看到你，我不知道我到底在想设么我感到很尴尬。当朋友们问我和你还在一起吗我不知道到该不该跟他们说好呢。我不像骗他们可是我不可以不骗他们。我发誓过和你分后我不会再和其他人在一起，我说到做到！我很想要我自己不要在想关于你的事情但是我好像不可以控制我自己。哈，我想不再爱你了不代表我不再关心你了。你懂吗？你是我一个很好很好的朋友，我一生中最关心我的朋友。我真的很谢谢你但是我对你做出那么坏的事情我想我不deserve你的爱。明白吗？啊啊啊啊哈哈哈我好像疯了的感觉 。

i'm going crazyyyy once again i've got no mood to study anymore . . i took so long to post this . it's already 8.45 , BYE!